Disaster will arrive when u give too many

"Han..why recently u r so cold to me...?"she asked me....i am not cold to you..i know...i care about everything about you...but just duno why..i cant smile to you...in front of you..i only know how to cry...when i heard u asked me this...i also quite nervous...why i am becoming like that...is that any problem between us...i asked myself...definitely no...cuz......i still care about you.....

One night...u come to ask me...should we step forward or walk behind....i think i will answer the first answer..but..can you teach me how to do it?i really duno how to step forward with you together....i asked u back...then how about you?forward or backward?ur answer is the same as me....it was quite surprising for me...because i thought that u will said maintain the same and dun move...but in the end..ur answer is the same with me...anyway....i should thank you....that u still believe in me and giving me chance......

Actually....jun...always said to me...he had a lot of trouble with his gf...just because of she is not so care about you...and u expect many things from her....to you...last time i duno how to respond to jun...now i think i had found the answer...

Whenever u give too much to a person...the person will not appreciate it...and take it from granted....take it as a step in life...that no meaningful...example...u want to hear she said i love u every night to you....i keep asking myself...isit necessary...when it give too much...then that word is no more special....and now...i learn something....last time...without 1 day..i cant messages to her....i must...and when she didnt reply me...i will angry..pek cek....and keep asking myself why she dunwan reply me...and sometime i will lost control...then end up in disaster between ourself...we argue....nonstop...for reason....why...?i wondered....why i need to do like this...

Now....i also duno why suddenly i didnt felt anything when she didnt reply me message....i didnt wonder why she didnt find me at night and went to sleep without telling me....when she didnt find me...i will just find something else to do....and this time...i did it greatly as i can control myself....

1 day by 1 day...then.she sms me...asked..."recently u r busy?why never find me?"for the first time....i hear this word from her.....ad 1 and a half year i meet her....for the first time she did this...then i phone her of course...and i find that...we can chat happily....yeah...this is what i want.....perhaps....when i pull back a little....it will become more balance....i ad walk too fast...i should stop a while...let her to catch up......is time to rest.....i am lazy to chase anymore.......

What i can trust and believe now....is what she said last night........."I love you...."