Numb

Recently this few days she always came to find me and keep sms me...i duno why she suddenly became like that...last time u said me irriating..now why u came back and find me...not only that....ur message to me were sweet sweet things....how come...i should be very happy to see your messages....but...this few days really made me think a lot....i have no feeling...when u see ur message with a lot thing that should make me happy...i didnt.....i just normal...and sometime i will feel like dunwan to reply ur message...this is the first time i think like that....really worst.....u ask me 1 question...whether seeing ur message happy or not..i was wondering...this question i ask u long time ago....and u told me...u have no feeling when seeing my message..no surprise at all....then i just keep quite...now..u ask me back this question....i duno how to answer you actually....but automatically...i reply ur message like a robot....YES..i am happy....am i lying to myself?..i duno and not sure....

Last night we keep smsing until late night....is a long time we didnt do like this....but is for the first time i felt tired when i sms with you...i lazy to think topic....and i lazy to type...but suddenly u said that u have trouble...haiz..no chioce..i have to phone you....ya...u always really understand about me...first hear my voice...u ad know i have trouble inside my heart...this is why i can love you so much because u know what i want and what i dun want..u undersatnd about me....i lie to her...and make myself happy...so she start saying her trouble...yes...i advise her...and she agreed...thats good...she always listen to me when she is in trouble.....then suddenly both of us stop...didnt said anything...she asked me...u are not happy isit...yes..again....she guess me correctly...i said to her my feelings...she just listen and didnt said anything...u always worry about me...but...unfortunately...i...become..so numb..........

For the first time..i can laugh with her with my tears rolling down..for the first time....i myself can be the first person to say goddbye and close the phone...for the first time...i really felt tired about you....NUMB is my feeling towards you.......