A polluted ocean

I done some wrong again...maybe...althought i dun like what she said to me....but i know it was still my fault that i had made our friendship had an obstacle....cannot move on...duno why recently i seem to be so moody and easily angry by myself....maybe i just need to be alone...then i wont hurt anyone....

Last time we always have a nice chat and will sms freqeuntly...but recently we didnt did it again....and when she find me chatting...i found out myself like dun care about it...what actaully happened to me..i also duno why....

I promised to be ur ocean...unfortunately...i was just a polluted one...not clean anymore....no fish can live in a polluted sea...cuz they will die....they will try to move to a safety place...not like me....rubbish..oil....blood....acid....fungi...bacteria...all fill inside my heart...i can no longer be an ocean...cuz soon enough...i will dry...until i become a deep desert.......full of scorpion....

WHO!!!!!!!!!!?????????WHO can help me clean this messy things in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I wan to sound it out loudly so anybody can hear me....but people just keep throwing things into me....

What can i said was...."Fish...i am sorry last night for hurting you...and if can...just forgive me......I am sorry....."